Glad January is over

What a rubbish month it's been for people I know of and or care about loosing their fight with cancer.  I have to mention the lovely Timms family from Brackley.  We were so relieved the snow stopped allowing Holly and I to be with you all for the day.  It was a lovely, wonderful funeral and wake and may Margaret RIP but alive in our memories.

As if I needed any more reminding about how fickle cancer can be, ignoring my swelling face, weight gain and generally feeling worse then I had for a while,  I was finally persuaded last week to get to the Dr's.  Within 3 hours and after a couple of phone calls I was admitted to MAU and have got say the experience there was improved since my last visit in 2009.  I did  laugh when the Dr phoned me at work to say she had been been in touch with the Oncology team and then  "Your not going to like this but  ..."

Within hour and half,  all the tests, examinations and xrays and been done it was a case of waiting for the results (This is when I wish I had shaved my legs ).  The Secondary Breast Care nurse came up after clinic and said I was not to leave until a CT scan and MRI had taken place.  When the Dr and consultant  went through the results with me, we agreed that realistically I was not going to get scanned as it was gone 4pm at this time and that they would get them  booked for tomorrow.  This pleased me as I had no intention of staying overnight, however the CT scan is booked for next Tuesday morning with an appointment with oncology in the afternoon. 

Turns out that my liver functions, despite the improvement a fortnight before, has deteriorated and  I am passing protein in my urine.  It was quite frightening and had to get the plan b's into action for Holly if I was kept in.  For at least 1 minute my mind went to that dark place with the words that were being thrown about and the speed it all happened at.  Thankfully the clinical examinations have ruled out the dark places I went to however I will wait for the CT scan to be absolutley certain.  The water tablets have worked and I have lost the weight I had gained already and my face isn't sporting the steriod look.  Something else for me to research...

I managed to get to my Homoeopathic appointment this week as the last one was thwarted by the snow.  The Dr is pleased with how I have been with the Iscador  (mistletoe), Carcinosin and Ignatia and has prescribed 2 more for me to help with water retention, nausea and leg cramps and will put them on here when I have found some useful resource.  In addition to that my friend Tracey has pointed me in the direction of Chlorella which I will have to get myself.  He pointed out about my negative attitude with regards to next weeks scan as I told him I am expecting growth and spread as I am  not taking anything heavy duty to put the brakes on the cancer cells so to speak.  I only started the Homoeopathy medicines after Christmas because of my minor op.  Personally I think I am being realistic and expect to start a course of chemo, which isn't going to be a problem if my body reacts like it did last year when I went on it. 

Off to shave my legs as you never know.....